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Monday, August 8, 2016

It Ends with Us Review




Author:Collen Hoover
Genre: New Adult, Romance, Contemporary
Rating: 5+stars


Dear Colleen Hoover, 

I feel like writing my review in this manner would speak to you, to the readers who have had the pleasure of reading this gem, and also to everything the story is about. First of I would like to say thank you. It was so hard to read those pages and I am so sure it was 100% worse having to write it. I have read several of your novels and I have loved you for so long. You never fell short of entertaining me. However, reading It Ends with Us might as well have been reading a completely different author. You didn't try to make thisentertaining, no, you were trying to tell a story that isn't often heard. 

"I feel like everyone fakes who they really are, when deep down we’re all equal amounts of screwed up. Some of us are just better at hiding it than others.” 

I can't say I have ever gone through that in my life. I am still pretty young and naïve. Anyways, I have definitely heard about these situations. And I don't want to be a liar but I have definitely judged, as an outsider, in that situation. In It Ends with Us , I wasn't allowed to be objective, I wasn't allowed to sit on the side lines. With everything that happened with the plot, I swear I felt all the naked emotions. So when I was a mess of tears at some points in this novel (UHM, BASICALLY ALL OF IT), I realised unless I have truly lived through an event for myself, I had no reason or place to judge. 

I am confident that the next sentence I am about to write has never been written or spoken aloud before. When he was wiping that cow shit on me, it was quite possibly the most turned-on I have ever been. 

I connected so much with Lily Bloom . I wanted to be her. I didn't want to be her. I wanted to support/cheer her on. I wanted to berate her. Thats when I realised I cared so much for these people in It Ends with Us . I didn't (and still don't) see them as characters. I see them as real living people. People who have all struggled, who are still struggle and who will continue to. They go through their ups and downs and... just live you know? I think a lot of people need to do that. I found aspects in each "character" that I could relate to a friend, family member or acquaintance. It was quite eye opening and made me connect so much more with the novel.

"You warned me. You said one time with you wouldn’t be enough. You said you were like a drug. But you failed to tell me you were the most addictive kind.” 

So not only was the characterisation superb, the plot was meticulously woven. Everything had a purpose and also everything had a time. So I honestly don't have any flaws to speak about. Even if there was, I. did. stop. me. from. loving. everything. about. this. Also now that I have read It Ends with Us , the Note from the Author is even more resonating. I suggest you all read that AFTER read this. It was beautifully written and beautifully honest, much like the novel. Maybe I should have waited a day or even a night before writing this review, but in honour of the honesty that is this novel, I wanted my feelings, emotions, reactions to be naked and raw.

Because I’ve been feeling like drowning lately, and sometimes people need a reminder that they just need to keep swimming. 

If I could sum it up in a phrase it would be this, "It Ends with Us f***ed me." (This is as poetic as it gets.)

But no matter how different the substance of a love might be at different ages in a person’s life, I know that love still has to weigh the same. 

So Colleen (I think we are at a first name basis after this novel) thank you writing this story.

Sincerely,

Your most devoted reader and fan girl
Diana


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Saturday, July 30, 2016

The Hard Count Review

Author:Ginger Scott
Genre: ,Young Adult, Sports, Romance, High School
Rating: 5+stars

I love my home. I just hate what living here makes people do. 

Ginger Scott needs to stop making me cry. No, seriously. This needs to stop. I have read five of her novels and I haveBAWLED with each one of them. I don't know how she does it. It feels personal, like she is targeting just me, like she knows JUST what to write to make eyes water. 
“There’s this great thing that happens, though, when you don’t have everything. You find something deeper." 


There aren't enough words to convey how BEAUTIFUL The Hard Count is. Ginger Scott creates a story that is so thought provoking, so enlightening and so subtle in its beauty. 
My family’s success gives me pleasure—even when it’s killing us. 
The Hard Count follows the story of Reagan Prescott, the daughter of the football couch and the sister of the leading quarterback, Noah. Reagan Prescott has a love for film and her submission video for college focuses on the infamous football team and most importantly the sacrifices and pain that come from holding that Prestige. Her film showcases what football and an elite (cough cough shady) school does to her family, to her relationships. There is this idea of perfection; Being the perfect daughter, the perfect sister, the perfect family. I honestly think the word "perfect" should be erased from the english dictionary, it would save us the trouble. 


And I will be what you need because I know what it’s like to need…to need someone. To need to believe again. I believe… 


While Reagan delves deeper into her documentary, she realises Nico Medina is the heart of her story. After a tragic game, that leaves Noah with a fractured leg, Nico Medina has to step into the big shoes left by the injured quarterback. The football team is all about Honor, Respect and Brotherhood. Despite this, most of the team does not accept Nico's place on the team. There is the school board, the boosters, the coaching team, the school politics who are all against him. But football has never been about anyone else but himself, he plays because HE loves it. 


I want my camera. I want the safety of living this part through the lens. I don’t want to be part of the story, but I am. 


Through this journey, Nico and Reagan change from being class enemies to each other's confidants. They build a foundation made of respect, empathy for one other and love. Reagan watches through her lens as different elements and people try to break Nico. But they don't know him. Reagan begins to see who he really is. He is one of the smartest individuals she has ever met, he is also the kindest. He has so much love for his family, his home. He is loyal, he is strong, he is so so so STRONG (I am trying really hard not to cry). There are so many curveballs thrown. I honestly don't know how someone can continue to stand up after being shoved down several times.


This—this is hard. The quiet. It’s too honest. 


The Hard Count focuses on perspectives and lenses. The way different people see the world. How sometimes we only see our mistakes when we critically look at ourselves. How people we love see all our redeeming qualities. It is all about your outlook on life. It is about switching out lenses to have the one that magnifies the world YOU believe in. 


Nico is the twist in the tale. He’s the element of good. He’s what humanity should be—the lesson to be learned. He is hope. 


The Hard Count made me feel thinks I didn't think I could. I was taken back by the force of emotions. Ginger Scott definitely did what she set out to do. She made me feel. 


“We failed to learn from the stories that warned us that if we create environments that perpetuate poverty, that force the people in them to beg and steal, then we’re equally to blame for many of their outcomes.”



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Saturday, July 23, 2016

And I Darken Review

Author: Kiersten White
Genre: Fantasy, Young Adult, Historical Fiction, Historical 
Rating: 5 stars

If there is one thing I trust, it's my gut. And my gut knew one page in, thatAnd I Darken would become my favourite novel of the year. 

"The price of living seems to always be death.And that is why you become a dealer of death. You feed death as many people as you can to keep it full and content so its eye stays off you.” 


I feel as though 5 stars is an under-statement to the EPICNESS that is this novel. It was pure gold. It was beautiful, complex and encompassing. Most importantly, It was very smart. 


“We are that tree,” he said, then rode ahead. Lada pulled on the reins to make her horse, a docile and dull-brown creature, pause. She studied the tree squeezing life out of stone. It was twisted and small but green, growing sideways in defiance of gravity. It lived where nothing had any business thriving. 


And I Darken is a story about Lada, the daughter of Vladimir Dracul, The Dragon, and the Emporer of Walachia. (This is not a paranormal novel, there are no vampires and Vladimir is not portrayed as such). Lada and her little brother Radu are kept as "prisoners" by the Ottoman Empire to ensure cooperation from Vladimir. At the capital, they both take companionship with the Sultan's third and outcasted son, Mehmed. And I Darken is a story of Lada and Radu's journey in this foreign land. There is a lot to be learnt, a lot of mistakes to be made and a lot of loyalty to gain and maintain. There is a lot of court politics, espionage, alliances, back handed dealings, power and sacrifice. 


A dragon burned everything around herself until it was purified in ash. 


If I would take anything from And I Darken is the power of Sacrifice. 


When they prayed together, Radu felt it more deeply than when he prayed alone, as though Mehmed’s very soul was stronger than everyone’s around him. 


I kept my review short because everyone should experience this novel with a naked un-adulterated eye. Make what you will from it. Some people love it and some people hate it. No one can deny the lasting impression.....


....... And I Darken forces you to listen. 


"It would mean I was set aside and forgotten, and I would rather die than be forgotten.”
"I am no longer the daughter of the dragon.” She lifted her chin, sights set on the horizon. “I am the dragon.”




                                             Find this novel on 
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Sunday, April 17, 2016

The Bad Ones Review

Author: Stylo Fantome
Genre: Contemporary, Dark Romance, Thriller
Rating: 5 stars

This is a beautiful bloody masterpiece. 

The Bad Ones is not a novel for the weak hearted, or the strong hearted or basically anyone with a heart. There were moments where I couldn't physically finish this novel. But I did. And I am weirdly happy I did. In some ways, It was almost too easy to read... And that is what scared me. Usually, when beginning a novel, my mind is distracted and trails a bit. However, From the opening words "Ms. Travers", I found my new favourite novel of 2016. 

What a beautiful darkness we are. 


The Bad Ones is a story about Constantine Matthews and Dulcie Travers who find each other in the last years of high school. They both live in the small town of Fuller, but live opposite lives. Constantine is the mayors' son, the all star quarterback and most popular guy at school. On the other spectrum, Dulcie is a shy, withdrawn girl from the trailer park. She spends days drawing in her sketchbook and ignoring the short stick she drew in life. As simple as it sounds, both characters see the darkness within each other. This beautiful darkness is what threads their lives together. 


She wanted his darkness to swallow her whole. She wanted to be a part of it. She wanted to give her own darkness back to him. 


I was expecting dark N.A. or dark romance, but The Bad Ones is just DARK. It is a novel about the different shades of black. It is about finding your true, primal, raw self. I felt like I was walking through someones darkest thoughts. And even though there were moments where I was shocked, the story enthralled me. It captured my attention. I honestly don't know why I love dark novels so much, maybe its the fact that I believe its the closest thing we will get to the truth or reality. 


“All I've ever wanted was to be myself, all the time,” her voice was shaky. “And for you to love me.” 


The plot is out of this world. It felt like there were ten different mini stories occurring under the main one. From the cover photo, I can reveal that The Bad Ones is actually bloody, don't be fooled or naive going into this. (Small note about the cover art : in one picture, it captures what the story is about. Constantine. Dulcie. Blood.) I loved how the plot felt dynamic and flowing rather than static. The time line is spread out, which allows for character development and building up the tension all leading to the final BOOM. 


She wanted to go, wanted to corner him somewhere, wanted to kick and scratch and bite until he recognized her for what she really was – his reflection. 


Speaking of character development. For the first time in a long time, I was more interested in the heroine than the hero. Don't get me wrong Constantine is bad bad bad. He is a dark cloud that surrounds the town. He is more of an anti-hero. He has soo many faces; I don't I even think got to know the real him. It was disconcerting to have gone through the whole novel and still feel so blinded by a character...


I orchestrated it. Con is just the star of the show – I'm the producer.


...But he has nothing on Dulcie; she is such a kick ass raw character. Dulcie is a raw beating soul out in the open. She knew who she is, what she is meant to be in her world and is unashamedly herself. Her strength and intelligence inspired me. There were moments where I was actually rooting for her, which is fucked up when you think about the context ( but you actually have to read the novel to understand that). 


“Of course you aren't scared of me. I'm not the wolf. You are.” 


Stylo Fantome delivered a phenomenon piece of writing. I have never doubted her talents. Since reading The Kane Trilogy, I knew I would love anything she published. The Bad Ones attests to this. 


“Do not paint me out to be the monster in this story. Your claws are just as bloody as mine.”


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Tuesday, February 9, 2016

Wolf by Wolf Review


Author: Ryan Graudin
Genre: Historical Fiction, Fantasy
Rating: 5 stars

Wolf By Wolf by Ryan Graudin is one of the greatest examples of a "what if?" story told well. That is an understatement. It is the best YA alternate reality novel I have read so far. This not because it was overly complex, it is actually the opposite. I fell in love with the simplicity of the world. It also scared me. How easy this world could have been ours. Graudin makes us remember and most importantly, acknowledge our own past history. 

She was going to cross the world and change it. Or die trying. 

In this alternate universe, Germany wins World War Two, the science experiments done on patients have actually succeed, and lebensraum is occurring in full force. A whole world is being oppressed with no one brave enough to try and change it. Yael sets out to change the world, not intentionally at first. Her destiny seems to be already written, her story sung through the howls of her wolves. She is not your typical heroine, who naturally has macho strength and an unwavering confidence in her goal. She is human, she has to work for everything, literally sweating blood and tears. She isn't infallible and her vulnerability adds so many layers to her personality. She is one of the strongest heroines.
The death camp’s song rose from every corner of the night. Not wolves. Just people. Crying and crying and crying. She howled with them. 

Yael's story begins at the concentration camps, where her and her mother are sent when she is young. From the offset, a doctor at the camp sees something unique in her, something Yael can't even see yet. He picks her out of the line immediately and she becomes his experiment. Every few days, drugs are pumped into Yael, changing her from the inside. Yael begins to experience the side effects of these drugs. She slowly loses her innocence and her identity within the concentration camp. It is hard to remember who you are when you existence is compounded down into numbers on your arm. 
She’d already lost her face. She could not let the rest of herself (however dark, however broken) slip away. So she traced and she named. She hurt and she raged. She remembered. 

However, Yael gets the opportunity to escape the camp and she takes it. She joins a rebel force that is planning on bringing an end to the Third Reich. Yael is essentially a lone wolf in the world. Being part of a cause lets her feel needed, wanted and most importantly seen. The only way the Third Reich can end is if Hitler himself dies. Now finding an opportunity to execute (pun intended) the plan presents itself in the Axis Tour, a motorcycle competition around the globe. 
"They need to know they’re not alone.” Not alone. It was a cruel irony that this was the message she had been chosen to deliver. She, the loneliest of all. The girl without a people. Without a face. The girl who was no one. Who could be everyone. 

Yael impersonates last year's victor Adele Wolfe and joins the game. The winner gets one dance with Hitler at the ball, which is the opportunity the resistance needs. She soon realises that this competition is the last of her problems. With Adele's love interest and brother watching her every move, her walls begin to crack. She has to win this competition, keep her secret from Luka and Felix, and ultimately save the world. 
"But there are two truths I’m sure of.”
“What?”
“I care for you.” 
It was the most sincere, unflinching thing Yael had ever heard him say. 

I honestly loved everything about this story down to its core. The themes of finding one's identity, sacrifice for the greater good, and love are poetically and beautifully presented inWolf By Wolf . There isn't much action or plot but a lot of introspection. It is psychologically and emotionally captivating. The side characters were all so unique and enigmatic. I honestly think they can all get their own story. This novel wouldn't have been the same without Felix's unwavering love for Adele and his family, Luka's charismatic personality, which constantly tested and confused Yael, and finally Yael's five wolves. 
“I decided I couldn’t be afraid of my own life. My own reflection. So every morning I make myself look in a mirror for five minutes. Face it all.” 

Wolf By Wolf is an extraordinary story. Ryan Graudin should be so proud. 
There was still beauty in this world. And it was worth fighting for.


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Sunday, January 10, 2016

Fuck Love Review

Author: Tarryn Fisher
Genre: Romance, Contemporary
Rating: 5 STARS!!!


“We were both on the search for something true at the same time. Sometimes a person’s truth is another person’s love.”



Fuck Love is a game changer for me. This novel is out of this world amazing. I sat through reading this novel thinking "OMG, HOW AM I ALLOWED TO BE PART OF THIS?" The story line is so authentic and so heartbreaking beautiful, I spent most of this novel in tears (but happy and sad). There are just stories that INSTANTLY click with you and this was it. From the first word in, I was hooked. Tarryn Fisher became my drug dealer and her books are my drugs!!!!

"...Being Single. It’s freedom and loneliness, exhilaration and inner calm. It’s the best high and the worst low.”

Have you ever had a dream that just changed everything? That alters everything you knew about yourself and your future? Well, Helena did! And from the moment it happened, her world changed. It was the sort of dream that made you question all the decisions that bring you to a certain point in life. Helena decides the dream is a wake up call to start living her authentic self and being the person she was supposed to be! She is a crazy, weird, bubbly, contemplative character and one of the best characters I have read so far. Most importantly, she is trying to find herself and accept herself. 

"I don’t want to be someone’s ‘girl who got away.’ I want to be someone’s ‘girl who’d I’d never let get away.'" 

Kit Isley is equally charming, honest, and compassionate. Their story gives me the chills even thinking about it now! :D They meet in college where they are both at different stages in their lives and have different commitments (cough cough). They spend a majority of the novel not knowing each other too well. Their friendship begins to grow and so does their trust. 

Because I’m not brave enough to change with everyone watching me.I’m scared of what they’ll really think of me. If I embrace who I know I am.

Fuck Love does have some romance, but saying it is a romance love diminishes ( just had a economics exam, mind my econ terms) its complexity and depth. I loved it with all my heart! What makes a great romance novel is incorporating all these other factors, such as friendship, family, truth and acceptance, into one cohesive evolving element. It was no overly-dramatic or angsty, it was a great balance between romance and a coming of age/a search for the truth. 

What does it feel like? I ask myself. Like cold air in your lungs after too much warm air. Maybe this is how you feel when you find your place in the world.

And, it is weird to say, but I don't think I will read it ever again! It was/is powerful as it is. 

“Okay, but I’m trying to find myself.”
Greer grins. “That, my dear, is the scariest thing you’re ever going to do.”
“Why is that?”
“Because you might not like what you find.”

Please read this! :D

Trying to walk away from something you love is like trying to drown yourself. You want to, but it’s unnatural to not crave air. Your body demands it; your mind says you need it. Eventually you break to the surface, gasping and unable to deny yourself that basic need of air. Of love. Of fierce desire.



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Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Complicate Me Review

Author: M. Robinson
Genre: Romance, Mature, Coming of Age
Rating: 5 Stars

Our first kiss was our beginning and in some ways our end.

I just know that after M. Robinson finished this novel, she smirked at her manuscript, smoked a cigar and thought, "let me give my readers hell". And hell she brought. The most wonderful kind of hell. Complicate Me was simply a stunning literary work. It was authentic, captivating and heartwarming while still being brutally tragic and raw. Complicate Me encapsulates the beauty, pain and happiness of life. 

She would tell me later in life that nothing calmed her more than my arms around her, and if I had known that then, I would have held her every time she looked at me with sadness or disappointment. And maybe it could have helped heal the wounds that I cut along the way.

In this little town of Oak Island, the story of Alex and Lucas begins. Now I know what you are all thinking; another romance story, sigh, what is new? And I am here to say that Complicate Me is refreshingly new, original and kick ass. Alex and Lucas have been best friends, soulmates, and each others salvation since birth. Complicate Me begins at the end and goes through the chain of the events that lead to a heartbrokenly powerful moment. Most importantly, Complicate Me felt like an out of body experience as I vividly lived through someone else's story. It taught me to live. 

“You’re a good girl, Alexandra. That’s what makes you my Half-Pint. You’re the calm to my storm. It’s always been that way,” he paused to let his words sink in. “You’re my refuge.”

Being best friends, one would assume things would come easy for Alex and Lucas. It becomes blatantly clear that this is not the case. Alex is born a few years after Lucas and her three other best friends, Jacob, Austin and Dylan, and because of that she has always been seen as "the baby". As they all begin to grow up, Alex struggles to break out of their image of her. Mostly, she struggles to show Lucas that she is conscious and mature enough to see the impenetrable bond between themselves. Lucas struggles with accepting that Alex will not always be his brown-eyed girl. 

I was slapped in the face with my own hurricane. The winds turned against me and I didn’t even fight it. I let it take hold. I deserved it all.

There are so many turns and obstacles that both Alex and Lucas have to face. What sets this novel apart from others is its theme. Not only are we in the search for love but also comfort with being ourselves. Ultimately, it is a coming of age story, trying to find your place in the world and accepting everything that you are. Every character in this novel is constantly evolving and growing through their life experiences. M. Robinson shows both the happy and the dark moments, creating a constant rollercoaster ride of emotions. I was on the edge of my seat through out this reading experience (I still am from the ending...on to book 2). 

I loved picking on her as much as the other boys did. I believed it was in my blood to do it. My dad picked on my mom relentlessly, and my grandfather did the same with my grandmother. It was a Ryder trait. If we didn’t pick on our girls, then we didn’t love them enough. My dad constantly reminded my mom that the day he stopped picking on her would be the day he stopped loving her.

M. Robinson creates a great romance novel and ultimately a great life novel. The characters were all so dynamic, witty, intuitive and just plain fun. There were moments where I wanted to become part of their family; they are literally SQUAD GOALS! The plot is simple yet complex at the same time, having a lot of substance and depth to it. Ultimately, I just loved, LOVED, Complicate ME. I would honestly not change one thing. 

“One day I’m going to fall in love and he’s going to love me fearlessly. He’s going to protect me and fight for me. He won’t care about what anyone thinks, because he’s not a dummy like you are. We’re going to be happy because all you need is love."

There is something about love stories that bloom from childhood that always tugs at my heart. I think it is the truest form of love; it is a time where we are too young to be dishonest with ourselves, where society's expectations haven't hammered down on us, and we are unabashedly free. Complicate Me, at its core, is liberating. I loved and hated reading it. 

I love every single thing about you. I love you because I need you. I love you because there is no me without you. I love you because I can’t stop loving you, and I would be lying if I said I had tried.

Find this novel on Amazon and Goodreads.




Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Candidate Review

Author:Rachel E. Carter
Genre: Young Adult, Fantasy, Epic Fantasy
Rating: Should-be-10 Stars

“I told you not to trust a wolf. Because it would only ever want to break you… Haven’t you figured it out yet? I’m the wolf, Ryiah.”

Candidate by Rachel E. Carter was a whirlwind of a read. Because of this, I am staring at this white empty screen attempting to put my thoughts into words in order to adequately show the novels' worth. Candidate was by far the best novel in The Black Mage series and it pushed me to my limits. There is no holding back and because of that, my heart might be eternally bruised due to it. 

“And they told me to keep watch over a ‘lady.’” I couldn’t help but smirk. A lady. I lunged and defeated her guard. I was a war mage.

The first two novels in this series were tamer in the sense of brutality. What Candidate does is strip the smoke screen of deception and throw us into the realities of the Kingdom. No one is more shocked than Ryiah about the implications and consequences of these lies.   Ryiah fights  between doing what is right, with the chance of losing everything, or living in ignorance, and still, losing everything. 

“Remind me to never challenge you to a duel. You are a bloodthirsty savage.”

Ryiah is now a second rank Combat Mage and is betrothed to the non-heir Darren. Everything seems to be on track. However, Ryiah struggles with her impending title and court life and decides to go off to Ferren's Keep. There, she finds reprieve from court politics and focuses on just being Ryiah the combat Mage. She continues to prove herself and her dedication to the cause to those apprehensive about her. But Ryiah can not have the best of both worlds; being a solider and royalty at the same time. At the end of the day, she has to decide which one is more important to her. 

“That’s the thing about enemies. You never know who they could end up being.”

As the future war with Caltoth approaches, sides must be chosen. This decision opens the reader to the greyness of the kingdom and past actions that caused these chain of events.  Friends, families and relationships are tested; the question is whether they will hold up to the strain. It is almost impossible to distinguish between good and evil. Ultimately, who should Ryiah trust? 

“The truth is told in anger, not regret, love.”

Ryiah really grew through these novels; yes she still made mistakes, but she was more conscious of her actions. She transforms into an empowered, self-confident (most times), passionate individual. I wonder if she was always destined to be a princess; to implement change. Darren still remains swoon-worthy and charismatic. There is just something about him that attracts you in like a moth to a flame. Their chemistry is off the charts and I can't wait to see where their relationship takes them. The characters in Candidate were dark, gritty, but brutally honest and raw. They all evolved and played an instrumental part to the ending. 

“You smell like home.” I felt him crack a smile. “Would you believe me if I told you the same?”

The Plot.... I honestly don't know what to say. I am literally stumped. It takes a lot to surprise me, Candidate surprised the hell out of me. One thing is for certain, Rachel created this novel with such  sophistication and maturity. The plot was so meticulous and complex that you didn't really know what is going on until it happened. There were moments where I would could not believe what I was reading. I want to hug this novel but also want to strangle it. I want to comfort Candidate and I also want to it comfort me and tell me everything will be okay.

How many times can a person shatter? At least one more.

I am really proud of Rachel's work and passion in Candidate. I will be riding shot gun for the final novel, The Last Stand. I hope Ryiah is ready! If she wants to win, she has to stop being the sheep and become the wolf. 

Flames erupted in a tempest of red. Against the bright summer sun it seared. Red like blood. Red like rage. Red like revenge.

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